a series of unfortunate events{a post to a dear friend}

09.25 am, in a space at the 20th fl of a building in a central distric of jakarta.

*hmm let see what's in my agenda today. meet some friends for dinner, grocery shopping, a good nite rest for tommorows prep, and.... owh yeah, i want to write my blog. whowww, i'm gonna do some hell of a writing today!*

09.35 am, turn on 'jets: r u gonna be my girl', login to www.blogger.com

*okay, let's get this baby on the road. what will i be writting today? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm*

09.45 am, next on playlist 'jamie cullum: high and dry' *what should i write what should i writewhat should i writewhat should i writewhat should i write? hmmmm, think sarah, think.... think..think...think....hmmmm*

09.50 am, "phantom planet: california" is playing hit "save as draft" button, signout blogger.com

17.00 pm, turn on "damien rice: blower's daughter"

*damn, the tune of this song is too sad.. i can blurted my tears if i keep doing this.

17.01 pm, changing playlist: "Hoobastank: The Reason"

*my god, is this a sign? the song is so perfect. Now, I have a reason to write. another sad thing had happen in this hell whole called office. no, it's not only about one of my 'chief something officer' who had tendered his resignation when the rumours says that he's actually forced to resign by very powerful people in this office! it didnt give me a reason earlier and it will not, now. but when it happened to someone called colleague instead of boss, a colleague whom I've become close in the last couple of months because of his very cool attitute towards me (though not to others), it sure give me a reason to write!

T called me just a minute ago. organization structure he said. arggggh, i have to face this mambo jumbo shit agai! whatever!!! i entered his chamber, ready to not paying so close attention. my intention was to get in and get out with one piece without many question. i've done this a zillion times boss, more than the amount that i have to!

the mambo jumbo started. 'this is the box that you will be in' he said wisely. "r u okay with it? do you have problem with these people? any questions?'. i answered everything with a simple no, hoping to get out of that room as quickly as i could. but he was not to let me go that fast. 'arent you curious of what happened to your former colleagues?' he asked

damn, i forgot about the other colleague as i have asked about the other one. 'owh yeah, what happened to him?' i asked in ignorance. 'he cannot find a box for him' he said. 'excuse me?' i said. 'they cannot find a box for him. this is not my call. this guy, this gal and finally this guy said that he has no contribution to this company whatsover. his costs are too much. so he will be out once this is announce' he said sadly.

i dont know how to react nor to answer. if it happened 4 or 5 months ago, when he was just someone whom i know by name, it wouldnt matter. but now, that we've discussed some things over and over, when he made me laugh with his jokes, when he thought me of doing stupid yet funny things, and most of all when i realize how naif and nice he is, it made a different. suddenly the talk that i've been doing for sometime now, about wanting to get fire for 6xsallary suddenly echoed in my head over and over. it was me who asked for it. but it happened to a dearly friend.

the thought echoed over and over, my god how my head is getting heavier by the time. i decided to excuse myself out of the room though i can still heard my boss' voice in the silence. BANG! once i was out of the room, my eyes hit him. it was he, starring at me with his awkward yet dearly kind smile. god, he knows and he still can smile!

once again i was the witness of how cruelty of office politics undergo a naif and kind people.

my dear friend, i cannot say a thing expressing my condolences to you (nor to anyone, as the news is effective per 1 june 2005!!!!!), but i want you to know that what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events might turn to be a start of a journey...*