ought to {KILLS THE SINCERITY}

What you ought to do for those around you often kills the sincerity of words, right? simple examples: how many agreeing have you donewhen actually deep down inside your hearts says no? for your buddies, bosses, families or just people close to you!

you open your friends' blogs, wondering why suddenly everyone thinks that they are a great writer, when suddenly you realize one of your closest friend's blog is her way of making a kind of book which are 'hot stuff selling' right now. then what do you do? encourage her by saying what a great things she's writing or just pretend that you dont have any idea the blog exist?

you are sitting nicely in front of your computer when suddenly one of your co worker come with a new skirt that made her look a zillion time fatter. you know she bought that branded skirt with almost half of salary, and you realize that now she's in the phase of showing people that she now has money, after getting through sometimes ago with family financial difficulties. with all that consideration will you have the heart to say that the awfully expensive skirt made her look fat, when she asks you?

there are times when our heart is yelling cruel things while the mouth shout nice things. maybe this custom is born when in the past our experiences thought us that 'bithcy mouthed people are just not good to be around. but to think of it, they represents all the things that we just cant get out of our head, right?

hmmm, truthfully i wouldnt want to be noni whose being hate by everybody because of her sarcastic words. but i dont also want to be the old me, whose never have the guts to say my true feelings. keep the rude side inside, and keep everybody else happy by saying nice things. the old me never want to see faces i've hurt with my 'bitchy but true feelings'

but then i realized something. this aint right. my save way give birth to other stubborn bitches. bithces who feel that they are supperior. so i found a way out (well at least, this is a way out said my tiny winny head).i should encourage myself to say what i felt, though it's hard hence i should build power to be able to see those hurtful face once or twice. hey, people do that to me and i can hande it fine. so why cant they do the same? this way, i'm also helping them by not turning them into those stubborn bitches, right?

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