SHIT...stoooooop!

would you stop running around in my head just for a bit? let me rest my soul in peace just for a sec. i know you say that i asked for it. i did. long long time ago. way back in a perfect life that i used to have.

i say it was boring. wrong. it should be written in capitals. BORING! yes, so idiotic of me to do that right? who the hell i am calling my perfect life boring? true as it can be, in my opinion a person will have 2 choices in life. first, having a constant headache because of one's continous problems or two, having a flat rounded life absent of problems.

mine was the second one. and i prayed for it to juggle a little bit. now, look where it got me. hmmm.. a sin perhaps? for not thankful to His great blessing. now i've had it.

the thing i asked for is right now in my mind. it's constantly running around, torchering every bit of my restless soul. and i almost given up. should i? *problems, there you are..*