ununderstandable

it got me thingking allright. not about how life is only once hence use it as good as you can, but more in a way that life is only once, so why bother? losing a friend so young and full of life remind me of my own lost. is it fair if we are expected to do our best in life when we are not even sure where our boat is headed. is it fair when we are trying to achieve our goals, then bang... a lightning strikes destroying either our efforts nor taking something so important for us?

apathic..hmmmm.. what else is new huh? i'm getting sick of these whole games. but nothing i could do to stop it. do you call it quitter or do you call it faith if i stop trying and just take it as god's want?