Officially final posting

This will officially be my last posting from 192 168 0 196.

yes, finally i have to say goodbye for my 2,9 years of internet protocol. all this time, i imagine the goodbye will be a happy go-go event - a chance to say goodbye to the loath that i've built for the last 1005 days. but today, as i sit in front of my computer, 2 hours before i finally stepped out of this 20th floor for good, i can't keep my mind from doing all the questioning.

i am leaving my comfort zone. this is the only life i've known. what will become of me?

funny. it's so funny that now i cannot think of one reason of why i hated this place so much. it's a comedy, that now i wondered what was it that made me pray each and every single night to the almighty, wishing for this despair to end. its hilarious, how i questioned, what was it that got me started the first time: writing zillion of postings in this blog stating how i hate this place.

this moment, life is so funny, yet i have no intention of laughing. it's hilarious, yet i dont feel like giggling. owhhhhhhhhhh, i am witnessing how a piece of hatred should be paid with zillion of affection plus plenty of queried future.

but now, would i give it up? not ever in my lifetime. i will make the same decision over, and over again.

thank you almighty, for atc... and more, for l'e :)