Comfort Zone

Comfort Zone : area that makes one feel very comfortable in doing anything. Not necessarily meaning no promblem at all, but enough to make one hang on to face the situation.   If everyone has their own comfort zone then a question suddenly pops up in my mind. Why do we have to leave our comfort zone?  If our comfort zone makes us feel cozy, adequate to make us do our best and get the best out of it, despite from its different limitations and descriptions, then Isn't it supposed to be enough?   Comfort zone makes us feel as if we have everything that we need. Not in a way to make us feel that there's no trouble at all, but in a way  to make us believe that every problem that we're having or going to have will be taken care of. It should be enough isnt it? So why do we have to leave?   Leaving our comfort zone will bring changes. Changes means new things, and it could bring so many challanges ahead. Knowing what will happen in the future is the luxury that we dont have. Hence in every changes that will appear, we are faced with two possibility. Success or failure. Knowing all of that,  the question is when do we decide to take it?   Decision to stay is always in our hand. We can do that and forever stay in our comfort zone. But wouldn we feel bore to death? Doing the same thing over and over again, though we know it will do us good will leave everything as just a routine.      When this is happening to me, when I feel everything I am doing is just a routine needless to change, despite of its good effect for me I will leave my comfort zone. Sure, the moment I leave it I will be faced with two things: suceeding or failing. That is the risk I am willing to take.   I dont want to kill my energy to improve, just for something good that i already have. That will mean I am giving up on something better that could happen to me in the future. I will never be afraid to leave my comfort zone, though sometimes places I am heading doesnt better than my zone, though sometimes people will ask why leave for something so unsure. I'll say I will work it out. After all, when I first created my previous comfort zone, it was not a comfort zone before right?  I made it change, and I can do that again.   Never ever afraid of making changes!  

an answer for my self, posted when I am so afraid of moving on and be faced with something new

Somewhat Stupid

As much as I hate to admit, I've done zillion of stupid things in my life. Stupid,as I can feel it's sudden impact, or a slower kind of stupidity, that I feel the effect when I've been sank in it..

Okay..confession time..

My latest sudden impact stupidity happened last night. I was walking toward my driver, in a descend road while smiling to a new coworker..then BOOM..i fell to the ground, full with shame. trying to escape the situation, i get up, not looking at anybody then run to my car..I cant bare the shame..hiks..hikss..compromising the mortification, after 15 minutes of car ride, i felt something pulsating on my knee..DAMN.. I didn't see nor feel it before. My poor knee is bleeding to death..and it turns out that i've sprangkled anlge as well..Owh well, that's the price i've to pay for my stupidity..

After a carefull thought, a bleeding knee and a springkled angle, I've come to a conclution that a sudden impact stupidity is still a hundred times better, than the other kind of stupidity. Sure, i no longer have a flawless knee, can't sleep for days from the pulsating wound, cant wear minis for months, or given a bad image for draggin my one feet while walking. But there's no way in hell i would say it's the worse thing, if i have to compare it with the day i am so happy for getting a raise..

Hell, why do i say getting a raise is worse then a wound in my knee? One thing is a wound, and the other is a bless aint it? because of the consequences my friend. A knee wound, the fruit of my walking carelessness is something that i got from my stupidity, and i can feel the impact only a couple of minutes after the fall. But my raise? Well it keep me happy for sometimes..but, i keep wondering why did i get a raise? I'm not a brilliant nor superbly dilligent worker..so why? it turns out, the raise is the compensation of their guilty feeling for letting me do simple and easy day to day job that wouldn't bring any development to my brain, skills nor career. they would let me do that job untill i rot, while actually i am a more 'eager to learn' person..so this is where the stupidity began..the stupid thing is that i sacrifice my need to develop my self and my career for the amount of money i could hardly get at other working place. there...i've said it!

that is not the only impact that i got. somehow, i cannot stop my job, move to other places that might will treat me better though with less money, and let my self become the "babu" i am treated in my current job..isn't that pothetic? My lateness of realizing the stupid thing i've done, have sank me to that stupidity more and more..I have no idea when, where or how to stop.

Now, in my case, isn't it become so obvious why a bleeding knee is better then a raise? THey both have caused me wound. one wound cause a sudden pain. It will heal, though it might leave a distinct mark of an unflawless knee. while the other, created a remarkable happy feeling for sometimes then become a wound that will leave a remarkable mark in my heart. a wound that will never be healed (well, at least it might take a life time and a zillion of self-enlightment to healed)

The fruit of stupidity, slow or sudden, it will sure leave a mark. but better in your body then in the heart