Lowest Point: BAD MOOD

Friday, January 23rd 2003.. Just want to say that my highest point today is that tommorrow is weekend...Even though nothing is planned yet, but at least the thought of not going to work, and meeting the same loath that i've seen almost everyday for the past year and 3 months is just very fun..but, hey..i do have something planned for this weekend: Lord of The Rings, THe Journey Ends..here i come (that is if i dont have to face the extremely long linesssssss) My lowest point today is that i am in such a bad mood, that i cant think of anything else except running from the things that i have to do for the next couple of hours (that is to sit in front of my freaking "lemot" computer and focus on work). Imagine, i even refuse to go to plaza senayan for lunch...something i would not do with the right mind..A zip of the best coffee-cream cappucinni and chocolate koori on nyaku didnt help either...MAN, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME TODAY?? I bet the face look horrible today..not a single smile come out from my mouth..and that is just to add all negative values that my face have to offer all this time. HIKSSS..hiksss... Lets dig out what have made me in this bad condition?? Is it work? I dont think so, since i never really give a damn to this obligation called work.. Is it the family? Nope..they're doing fine i guess. nothing is wrong (hey, just a little funny note: do you know that my mum asked to watch "arisan" yesterday??) Is it my friends? my God, there are so many of them, I cant even think of someone that has driven me crazy like this..(whoa...talk about bragging my popularity!!) Is it my boyfriend? Couldnt be, since I dont have one (Note to myself: Please find one babe, you're not getting younger everyday)..huahahaha...big laughs One thing i know, it's got to be something that I can care a lot, since it has the abbility of driving me this nuts, and this bad. Hmmm...in such a bad mood like this, i dont think i can think straight..ya udah deh, pulang ajah yah...dadahhhhhhh PS: i think weekend is going to be great since i am meeting my favourite twins in the whole world...

future and so called decision

Isnt it very funny how a small decision can influence the rest of your life? Well it sure do. Sure, decision are made with existing and supporting facts. But how often is it that we are that lucky? It is likely that decision are made by intuition..so it is very, very (and I repeat verY) often that it have a great effect on such a moody person like me. Times, i felt like the decision I made is almost the perfect thing to do at the moment. The result? My changing feeling leads me to the thought that i've made a wrong one..bu..hu..hu.. Nyebelin banget kan? shit do happen at works..tapi masa gue harus mikir kalu gue udah bikin keputusan yang salah, setiap kali ngerasa ngga nyaman dengan sesuatu yang terjadi di tempat kerja? yang jelas seseorang disini sayang banget sama seseorang yang lain, sehingga mengutamakannya meskipun harus menyingkirkan lainnya. I know ini biasa banget terjadi di tempat kerja..tapi yang bikin kesel adalah, WHY AM I NOT THE FAVORITE ONE? No one to blame, nothing to change just a thought that is very-very bothering!!!!