Spouse Vs Cell Phone

i realized something new today.

As i accompanied a relative today to look for new cell phone, i came to a conclusion that searching for a new cell phone is almost equal to look for a spouse.

One cell phone will never have a the things you want. A cell might have the best features, but the style might not suit to your liking. others got great appeal, but the features are so so. When you found one that's most likely to your needs, both feature and style, the budget just doesn't fit yours well.

And the features, one might be missing of a 3G connection, others are without excellent mega pixel camera, some are missing wi-fi or bluetooth or infra red, and many are just plain phone without any prominent features.

But each one got their own market, and considered just o.k for the users.

All you got to do, is pick one (hopefully that fits what you need best), and hang on to it.. And so the same goes for choosing your spouse. Choose one that fits you best, and all the lacks that come along with it, well you just learn to except it as it is.

Because there's no way one person has all the things that you want in a perfect spouse.

envious?

i was at lunch in a fancy & quiet cozy spot downtown with a friend when the topic popped up.

She was saying 'i opened a friends fb page earlier,and reading her status 'mom to be' doesnt make me want to congratulate her. Instead i just closed the page.

I can relate, knowing that she and her husband are trying to get pregnant for sometimes now. But i cant help myself but wonder 'is it true that we can only be happy for others if we feel enough and above?'.. Can we trully embrace their happiness when it or something better has NOT happened to us?.. How about the term that each of us has our own portion and timing?

Is this feeling is what known as envious? Or it just something so human that we all have in our heart?

I know i have it in me sometimes...

alone

i had the house to myself today.. well, not for long. but it made me realized something. i hate being alone..

Despite all the 'individualist metropolis' label that is so often attached to me, or in the many times that i hate it when my mom keep on babbling while i try to read or watch something, or when i enjoyed my alone traveling time, i am not the alone material type.eventhough it is not in the sense that i begged everybody to be there all the time, but i need my family, my friends, and everyone else.

next time that my best friend asks if i missed my personal space (coz i dont even have my own room) my answer will be no.

i've decided that i dont want to have the rest of my life alone, i want to have a family, a family of my own. with the needy disturbing husband and adoring children who depends on us.. So help me God!