Thursday, November 29, 2007

.............someday.................

i am hoping by now you would have understand that i care a lot for you. but frankly, i dont know what else to do if you always find me wrong in every single things that i do... yes, i was hurt... a lot... but i guess my missing you defeat all the hurt that i felt. but please, i'm begging you not to take it for granted, because i might run out of missing feeling....someday...

Friday, November 16, 2007

Tested & Failed

Test: a means of determining the presence, quality, or truth of something; In many things in life, naturally we are being tested.. and from that point, we will come to the conclusion on how we're going to deal with many things in life. Maybe, in so many points we will succeed in handling the test. Since it is created by nature, and happened naturally, the standart of the result might not be something solid, hence there's room for . And the most important thing is, since no one prepared them to determine another person, there's no judge, and they might work together to work things out. But, a test created intentionnally to determine the presence, quality or truth of something might turn out different from the natural one. This way, a certain entity put effort to set a rule of standart: a point of failing and succeeding. And we, will always be judged based on that set of standard. Yes, intentional testing is good for knowing exactly how everything is. Just like when you are going to graduate from college, then you will be tested for your final exams to see how much you comprehend your lessons in the past 4 years. Or, when you are about to enter an english course, they will give you an enterence test, to see which level you are going to be in, so you will not be to left out by your classmates. Or, when you're about to join a company, they usually test you psychologicly or physicly to see the condition of you (mentally and physicly) will suit the condition of that companya. Yes, it is good to see the result... But one basic point of this tests is that YOU KNOW YOU ARE BEING TESTED... hence you have the time and luxury of preparing yourself...right? But, being put to the test, without someone prepared you for it, sucks! In the middle of no where, you are just presented with a set of result without even knowing when nor where the result is conducted. And the worst thing is, to know that you've failed.. Dear you, i hope you are happy with all of this.. because this is what you expect, right? Well, congrats... you got what you want, I have failed :)

Monday, November 12, 2007

from love to loath

soooooo... this is how it's gonna be between us, huh? i was expecting much more from you though.. at least, with the count of age, wisdom and patience is countable.. well then, let me just swallow my dissapointment again, and wish nothing from all this...

Saturday, November 03, 2007

rainbow

I've seen the rainbow, it's magnificent
but the rain pouring prior, it was heartbreaking
could there ever be a rainbow without the rain?